Happy Birthday to you…
Happy Birthday to you…
Happy Birthday to Brendan and Cathy…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I haven’t left yet, but listening to this song is already making me sad. I made this decision to leave and I’m still very excited about it, but I’m going to miss everyone here.
“Here Without You” — 3 Doors Down
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I?m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I?m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it?s only you and me
I?m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I?m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it?s only you and me

I spent all of yesterday afternoon and evening moving… with the help of two very sweet guys.. Ryan and Chance THANKS so much!
All my stuff is now at Brendan’s house. The dogs have been fairly well-behaved thus far, just a little bit of barking out of Bailey before bedtime and while I was in the shower this morning.
Sometimes I still can’t believe that I’m actually moving back to Cali. It’s exciting and scary all at once. It’s been 6 years since I moved here. And everyone I know back there has pretty much moved on.
Last night I actually had the first shimmer of feeling that I am going to miss it here. Well, I certainly won’t miss the weather, and I won’t miss my job… but there really are some things I will miss.
Today, I have to go back to my old apartment and get the last bits of my stuff and make some sort of attempt to clean. Hopefully it won’t take too long, because I think we might go to the bar tonight for trivia. Last week at the bar was very, very entertaining… and so were the stories afterwards. Sonoma’s is always a good time.

Since everyone is harassing me about not posting lately, here goes:
I haven’t posted in awhile, because there’s so much going on. I’m moving back to Cali — woo hoo — in less than 2 weeks. Tomorrow, I’m handing in my resignation letter at work, and I (hopefully) have an interview for an awesome new job the first business day after I return to Cali.
Packing and cleaning and getting rid of anything that I can live without, replace, or just plain doesn’t fit into my car has taken up much of my time.
8/8 is the big moving date. Brendan and I are packing all my stuff, the dogs, and ourselves into my little civic. First stop — Raleigh, NC. Then, I think we’re just going to follow 40 all the way across, with a stop in Las Vegas.
Am I crazy? 2 people, 2 dogs, and all my stuff in a civic for 3000 miles??? What was I thinking!
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, and worrying. I’m never quite sure quitting my job and moving back home is the best idea. I had so many doubts about it, but I’ve finally decided that staying here hasn’t made me happy and every time I get the opportunity to go home something comes up here that makes me stay. This time, that hasn’t happened.
However, I did meet a really sweet guy — Ryan. =) I haven’t told him, but I’m really glad that I met him, even if I am leaving soon. That could have made everything complicated, except that we decided up front that we’d just be friends once I leave… we both know the whole cross-country thing doesn’t really work. And I know he’ll be a good friend …. he’s already been a good friend. I probably would have spent the last 2 weeks (and the next 2 weeks) here feeling lonely and worrying about what I was doing… but I haven’t done that since I met him, and I’m very grateful to him for keeping me from feeling that way, even if he doesn’t realize he has.